chacha

A lot has happened this month and everytime i think of all the things that had happened makes me cry all the time.

I gave birth to my lovely baby boy last july 1st. I was in labor for 21 hours and I tell you, it's really painful. Why so long? The doctor tried and we waited for me to dilate but unfortunately my pelvic bones only opened until 5cm only. After the long wait, my o.b decided to do a c section around 9:15 pm and I gave birth at exactly 9:31pm. Now i understand and know the feeling my mom kept on telling me before.

My baby boy is healthy.

He's 8lbs and 12 oz

21 inches long.

The first days were really tiring but fun at the same time. My mom was with me all the time, guiding and helping all throughout the day. Until we received a call from the Philippines and found out that my lolo (my mom's dad) died. My mom had to go home and it'll just be me taking care of the baby. I tell you, I didn't sleep and I cried notknowing what to do when the baby is crying and didn't want to drink his milk and he's not wet as well. Haaay..

We're fixing everything so we can go home as soon as possible so that we can attend the 9th day of my opap. Life here in the States is really hard. I really want to go home now! I miss my family and friends so much..

chacha

really bored here.. there's nothing much to do but call ASEC and wait for the phone call of the President. Next week we'd be having our UN week at the fort and we're expecting a lot of people representing their country. So what would I be doing there? I don't know. I don't even know if I'm going or what.

Later I'd be finishing the invites for the said event next week ans we're having problems due to the people passing responsibilities and now we don't have a caterer for the event. I think division 5 would be the one fixing this issue. One thing that amazes me is the thought that our USEC is always not around... not working at all.. Well sometimes he does.. Visits the office like once a month to check on the people and leave. What does he do in return then? Treats the people out to eat.. haaay.. It really amazes me how things really work... HE doesn't work but he earns some monthly salary. Now, he's in Madrid which we don't know why and all he needs to do is to show up next week and act as if he was the one who did the work which we did.. 

I guess I have to go for now.. Lunch break.. 

chacha

Since I'm not doing anything I decided to write what I've been thinking since this afternoon. It came across my mind about two things I've been trying to figure out. the difference between a 'playboy' and 'habulin ng mga babae'.

Let's start off with HABULIN.. These guys are simply enchanting that you would want despite being shy that he'd notice you looking at him would make a second look when he passes by. He has to do nothing and a lot of girls go gaga over him. Pretty much the pretty boy type of guy or for me, the bad boy looking guys who looks so clean despite their rugged look. I think that at some point these type of people are the loyal ones and so to say down to earth kind of person.

Then here comes the PLAYBOY type of guy... Hehehe Okay how do I start? I know a person who's totally a playboy. So how do I say this? A playboy is someone who's pushing and pushing and just keeps pushing himself to girls he calls his girls or simply guys who keeps on running after girls and when they're with their friends would brag about girls running after him. He thinks that he's gaining pogi points and that he's macho and cool for having tons of girls without realizing that he's actually gaining ugly points. Then I have to say that at some point I find this type of guys pathetic and ugly people. I think that a person who falls under this category are those who has a lot of insecurities that's why to cover this up he would collect a lot of girls so to say that he's handsome. or wants to believe that he is... Maybe it's really how guys think? I don't know.

Some say that it's better to have lots of girls while they're still dating rather than when they are married already. But come to think of it, if they have been unfaithful from the very start do you think they'd change once they get married? hah!!

I know some may think that what I've just said is not true but this is only my opinion about this topic. It's how I see people around me..not all but most of the guys I know. We have different opinions on things and it's just that this is my point of view on this topic. Did I make sense? labo..

Cheers to loyal people out there!!!

chacha

Now I lay me down to sleep,

I pray for a man who's not a creep.

One who'd handsome , smart and strong.

He's not afraid to admit when he's wrong.

One who thinks before he speaks

when he promises to call, he doesn't wait 6 weeks.

I pray that he is gainfully employed,

won't lose his cool when he's annoyed.

Pulls out my chair and opens my door,

massages ny back and begs to do more.

Oh! Send me a man who will make love to my mind,

knows how to say when I ask

    "How fat is my behind?"

One who'll make love 'till  my body's  stop 'itchin!

He brings me a sandwich too

    when he goes to the kitchen!

I pray that this man will love me to no end

and would never compare me to any of his ex-girlfriends.

Thank you in advance 

and now I'll just wait

for I know you will send him

before it's too late.l 

chacha

_{I've been bragging about how bad my boyfriend is and how sad my life became when he entered the picture but I realized that I can't do anything about it anymore. I have been struggling for a long time already, trying to work things out and nothing seems to be happening.}

I always wanted my life to be as simple as possible but every single time i'm a relationship it seems like it becomes one of those stories I watch in maalaala mo kaya. No joke. Ask my friends and they know what I mean. Ever since I was a kid I didn't want to get married and was thinking that I'd be settled in a live-in scenario which I know my parents wouldn't allow. Now, I'm focusing more on working hard to have a place on my own and no live-in whatsoever in mind. I think I want to focus more on myself than you know who. 

There's been something bothering me for quite some time now and every night before I go to bed it makes cry. I've said that I have been having a rough time and my relationship with him is really struggling and at dome point even though I love him so much, the more days that passes by the more difficult it becomes because I'm becoming weaker and weaker that I'm afraid that there'll come a point where in I'll just explode. At some point I want to get out of the relationship. A lot of my friends and family told me that I'm better off without him. As much as I want to, it's hard and I'm torn because I know what to do but can't seem to do the right thing for myself.